Wednesday, October 29, 2014

5.00am and I cannot sleep because of terrible nerve pain radiating from my neck/shoulder down right arm into my hand, and even into my legs. This is the worst I have felt for quite some time.

Saturday, October 18, 2014

Saturday, October 11, 2014

Hand painted pen - "Fiori dell'oriente"



 "Fiori dell'oriente" / "Flowers of the Orient"




Friday, October 03, 2014

A special unique 1/1 hand painted dial for Danish Journalist and 
Watch Blogger Supremo, Kristian Haagen.


"Haagen Skull" unique hand painted dial 1/1
© 2014 TIMOTHY JOHN


About my work on hand painted watch dials...


I admit I am not a miniaturist nor am I interested in creating perfect painstakingly detailed pieces with the use of magnifying lenses (I work in natural light with my normal eyesight), 

I do greatly admire  the work of such artists, those that can paint in minute detail, it really is amazing, however I want my work on watch dials and pens (I also create unique pieces for Montegrappa) to have the passion and the emotion of my work on large canvases. 

I want my dials to have the 'soul' of my larger works, I want you to see the process, the creative force behind the imagery...

I want these pieces to be more than 'slick' decoration.

I create my watch dials on blank metal discs, I hand prepare each disc by sanding and cleaning, over a period of several hours, then depending on the imagery I want to paint, I will lay down several layers of coloured oil paint pigments, then burnish and sand back with ultra fine wet sand paper, these layers need to be thoroughly dry before I proceed to the next stage, I do this until I get the desired depth of colour and surface texture.

Then I concentrate on the featured painted image for the dial. 

I use oil pigments, the same that I use in my works on canvas, as I am comfortable with them and their permanence is unquestionable, I use small sable brushes, but I have also been known to use my fingers and other instruments, to get the desired results...
again, it is very similar to how I create my large works on canvas.

In the case of my skulls pieces, I underpaint the skull structure, slowly building up the image with consecutive layering of oil paint, until I have reached the desired effects I want.

Again, each of these painted layers needs to be thoroughly dry before I proceed to the next stage.

After I have completed the image, I leave it to dry for several days, I then hand burnish the entire dial by gently rubbing it by hand with glassine paper and finally with a pure silk cloth, this burnishing happens for long periods over several days,
then I leave the dial for a few more days to "settle", after which I seal the image 
with either a gloss or matte spray lacquer.

The finishing process  can take anywhere between 7-14 days, and a completed dial takes approximately 1 month from concept to completion.

At the end of the process I want to be able to hold the dial in my hand 
and feel at the same time a preciousness and a strength.

Sunday, September 21, 2014

I have pain radiating down from my neck through both shoulders and into my arms and hands. My hands are very weak and I have started to drop things. I also have pain from my lower back into both legs, pain like electric shocks. I do not feel well at all. I have been taking nerve pain pills, as well as my regular opiate pain pills, hoping they will help, but they have only really made me sleepy. A day wasted today as I slept on and off for about 5 hours. Tomorrow I have to call and make an appointment for an MRI to try an get some answers.


Update on MRI Results.
Cervical Spine MRI scan showed severe narrowing of the canal at
C6 and C7 with narrowing also showing at C4 and C5.
This is constricting nerves and causing the pain in shoulders radiating down both
arms and into my hands. The pain in my hands is terrible and I also have a loss of strength
and an a very annoying nervous 'twitching' in the thumb, index and middle finger
predominantly on my right hand.
I have been referred to a specialist for a nerve conduction study and also a
series of E.R.I's (Epidural Steroidal Injections) into the spine to try and ease the pain.

Friday, September 19, 2014

Wednesday, September 10, 2014

Pain

The nerve pain in both of my legs, arms and hands is getting worse. 
My hands are especially bad tonight.
Another night of no sleep as I feel like my body is riddled
 with electric fire ants crawling through my veins. 
I can't take much more of this. I am fighting with my pain and
the drugs and the crushing feeling of guilt and anxiety. I need to talk to someone..
but who and how? I fear making things worse, but how could they be.
I cannot sleep because of pain, and fear and guilt..like someone is standing on my chest, and holding me down. I don't know what to do, how to make things right again, I feel it has gone too far, and no one will care or listen.
I need to talk to someone.